May 16, 2012

More Update(s) On Me :)

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So, I know the last update I had about me was about me hoping I was pregnant with my last IUI. Well, ended up NOT being pregnant, but what else would I expect? I mean it has not happened for all 7 IUI’s, why on earth would it happen then?

Already having two kids, certainly does not make trying to conceive any easier. Yes, I have two wonderful, BUSY little miracles, but why on earth can I not have ONE more? I have questioned God and everyone for a LONG time on this. I just did not understand why I was unable to have baby #3...

All of this stuff really takes a toll on someone, it really really does! TONS of emotions, tons. So, all of you people out there, that have been through infertility, or are going through it now, still, I will say a prayer for you. Stay STRONG.

Now, my update…

So, after the 7 IUI failed I was beyond devasted. Our insurance was up and we were going to have other insurance, but not as good. Me and hubby decided that that was our last attempt at trying, with medical assistance, to have another child. So yes, it was HARD. Very hard..

So, April we took off. I did not chart, I did not know when my most fertile days were going to be, I knew NOTHING. I had some left over Fertibella that I had given to my friend, and she became pregnant, so she gave me the remaining pills. So, I decided, what the heck, why not take ‘em..

I decided on a WHIM, to go and buy me some pregnancy tests, afterall it was a monthly ritual for me to buy about 10-50 a month anyways, so it would have felt WEIRD to not buy any. So, I bought me some.

I decided to take one the next day, and of course I had NEVER taken this particular brand before (it was the Answer Early Test STRIPS). After the time limit (10 minutes) there was a faint faint faint pink line… Mmmm.. kay? I took the rest of ‘em, (yep, sure did) and there were FAINT pink lines on ALL of them, but after the time limit, GRRR.

So, I did some research online about them and talked to some gals and everyone said that they take a while, like after the time limit to even show any line if you are pregnant. So, of course that made me SUPER curious. I remembered that e.p.t had recently sent me some digital pregnancy tests, but I had them buried because I KNEW I would never  need them, EVER. So, I found them in my cupboard and decided to go ahead and pee on one, why not..

I went to tend to my kids and when I returned it was STILL showing that dreaded timer symbol. Then, all of a sudden “Pregnant” pops up. OMG. Are you flippin’ serious?! We barely had sex this month (TMI but TRUE…). NO medical help, no pills or shots? No way. No way.

So, I took another one, and SAME thing… Man, I was a bawling FOOL that night. I am PREGNANT. For now, right now, today, I am pregnant and that is all that I know. I am so happy, thrilled and beyond shocked. After three years of trying SO. Hard. Then this? LOL. Alright, I will take it!

My first appointment is on June 5th, and HOPEFULLY we will see a baby in my tummy. I have had 3 losses, so the first trimester is always ruined for me, in terms of being able to get too excited, but this one feels different, a GOOD healthy different :) I am happy :) So so happy!!!

Since finding out, I have been entering EVERY single baby giveaway on the net, and hoping I will win them all, LOL. I have also been searching the internet on great deals on baby products and finding Net voucher codes or any codes that will help me with buying baby clothes, gear and goodies and save me some money!

So, if you know of a great baby gear giveaway going on, please let me know of it! In fact, leave the link below so me and everyone can check them out! We are so excited for this new little one to join our family. It should be around the beginning of January, but if it is like my daughter probably middle of December :) OR I could be earlier since I was not charting so well anymore ;) We shall see…

So, this is my update and we are GOOD!

xoxo,

Kim

 

 But OBVIOUSLY my own words, LOL!

 

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Mar 12, 2012

Update On Me…

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Took down this post because sponsor was unable to pay me for it. So, I will make this post about how I am doing :) So the comments left below, were for that post, LOL, not this one :)

I am still desperately trying for baby #3. It is such a long, hard road, OMG. I never would have thought that ttc our third child would take almost three YEARS and counting…

It is very difficult hearing others announce they are pregnant, though I am extremely happy for them, I do wish it was ME announcing my pregnancy. Then I hear of those who have lost babies and am so deeply and truly sad and sorry for them :( No matter how old a BABY is, whether you JUST found out you were pregnant and miscarried, to losing your baby at 16 or more weeks, it is all VERY sad and unfair. So hugs to everyone who has suffered this sort of loss or any loss. It is so hard to deal with, I know all too well.

I have had 5 IUI’s and am about to do my 6th IUI (this is where they transfer your partners sperm into your uterus). They spin it and wash it and then put it into your cervix via a very small catheter, neat huh? It does not hurt really and the process is fairly quick. So, I have that to look forward to on Friday.

The reason it is taking me sooooo long to conceive, is because, when I was pregnant with my daughter, I lost my left fallopian tube. I am ovulating on the left side most months, and that explains why I am not getting pregnant, UGH. Month after month, being monitored (having an ultrasound to see which side I am ovulating from), fertility drugs and shots, I am worn out!

BUT…

Yesterday I went in for my Follicle Scan (to see which side I am ovulating from this month, sigh..) and I am ovulating from the side with the tube!!!!! FINALLY!! So, this month I have a CHANCE! I am soo excited, because every month I go in to see which side I am ovulating from I get the same dang news, that I am not ovulating on the side with my tube, but I am this month :) Oh I was and am beyond excited!!

Soooooo..

On Wednesday I get to give myself a Trigger shot, which is to make me ovulate 36 hours later so I will be giving myself a shot tomorrow night! Yikes, never have done it before, but the things one will do to have a baby…

So, that is what I have been up to, with my fertility issues and such. It felt good typing this as I never never really talk about myself or my fertility problems. It can really break a person, but this month I have HOPE!

You wanna know what is also kind of cool/weird???

In the last year, I have talked to FOUR different psychics, online, and each one has told me that I will conceive in March…….

“So, how are YOU doing????”

 

 

 

 

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Feb 13, 2012

ConceiveEasy Fertibella TTC Kit Review & Giveaway

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CONTEST OVER! CONGRATS TO

Shawn Rand #315!!

 

I was not able to review this ttc kit only because I am using fertility drugs to help in my journey in ttc again. I found this out after I said I would review this, that you cannot take this with fertility drugs, so I just passed it on to my friend, who is also trying to conceive. She was happy to help me review!

I received the ConceiveEasy Fertibella TTC Kit. I then mailed it to my friend. Her thoughts when she received the kit was she was so happy with it. I, of course, kept all the pregnancy tests it came with, because heck, I go through about 20 or MORE a month as it is, so free pregnancy tests are good to have! It can get VERY expensive you know…

 

My friend started taking the Fertibella immediately, when she received them from me in January. Her cycles have always been all over the place and ovulating was hard to determine. Fertibella is a natural aid (kind of reminded me of Fertilaid) to helps boost a woman’s fertility level by stimulating ovulation. It is said to be safe and an all-natural solution with no side effects. So, the first month my friend took the Fertibella, she said, her cycles started regulating AND she said she thinks she felt ovulation pains! She had more cervical mucus than she had in a LONG time, so she was soo happy!! Her and her hubby have been trying to conceive for almost as long as me and my hubby (me almost 3 years, her 2.5 years). She is thrilled that things in her cycle are starting to make sense and that she is having symptoms of ovulation! This is her second month using Fertibella and though she did not get a positive test result on a pregnancy test last month, she is super positive about this month! She said she has not had any side effects, bad ones, but she has had positive effects to Fertibella and that is great!

Now, I did do some research on the web and have noticed some complaints about Fertibella. Let me explain to you. Fertibella has a free trial promotional offer. This is where they offer a 30-day limited promotional offer to allow moms-to-be the opportunity to try the product before they buy it. For people who decide to cancel, they are never billed. The company said they go to great lengths to help their customers, and go the extra mile to ensure the best possible customer experience. And while that’s reflected in their A+ rating with the Better Business Bureau, it’s also the nature of the Internet, that sometimes, a frustrated customer can say any number of things, and it’s beyond their control. You do have to give your credit card number and you HAVE to remember to cancel BEFORE the first 30 days AND send back your bottle(s) BEFORE the 30 days is up. IF you don’t, you WILL be charged on your credit card. Many people did not understand this and therefore there are some bad reviews on Fertibella. Just follow the rules and everyone wins. End of story!

I also have to say that the larger pregnancy tests that come with this kit (NOT the smaller ones, they seem to be accurate), can be deceiving. I say this after taking all of them some of them and seeing a FAINT pink second line. It was on all of the tests that I took. I even went to the store and bought First Response because I was so excited, but all of those were negative, no line :( So that kind of broke my heart a bit.. So, I don’t recommend those pregnancy tests and if you do see a line on them, please back it up with another test just to be sure. False hope sucks! But, these tests are good if you are a poas (pee on a stick) a-holic and want to pee on things when you are only 3 days past ovulation, LOL. All you trying to conceive mama’s KNOW what I am talking about! Ha!

More Info On This Kit..

So, this is an all-in-one trying to conceive kit. It is said to be all you will ever need to increase your fertility and get pregnant faster. And for a limited time (see above!) moms-to-be can try the new TTC Kit and choose to customize their kit with any combination of an exclusive bonus gift of 20 free pregnancy tests, 20 ovulation tests or 10 pregnancy tests and 10 ovulation tests.

The formula has been clinically tested and those using ConceiveEasy (Fertibella) showed an increase in pregnancy rate of 33%. This kit assists women in increasing their fertility rate in just 28 days. The blend of ingredients helps support and enhances the body’s own reproductive cycle to eliminate common problems with conception that include things like progesterone deficiency, irregular cycles, poor quality cervical mucus and hormone imbalances.

So, all in all, my friend is certainly happy with the results so far, in taking the Fertibella.

Buy

You can purchase the ConceiveEasy Fertibella TTC Kit and/or take advantage of their Free Trial Offer by visiting them online at http://www.conceiveeasy.com/

 

 Win

The winner of the giveaway will receive Conceive Easy’s Months 1&2 Starter Pack and can also choose to customize their new TTC Kit with one of the following exclusive bonus gifts:

  • Bonus gift #1: 20 Early Result Pregnancy Tests
    Bonus gift #2: 20 One-Step Ovulation Tests
    Bonus gift #3: 10 Pregnancy & 10 Ovulation Tests

How?

Easy! Just use Rafflecopter below. There are no mandatory entries. You can do one entry or do them all. Good luck!

Disclosure:

I was sent a ttc kit to review. These are me and my friends honest opinions, thanks!

 

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Jan 27, 2012

SpermCheck Fertility Kit Giveaway

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CONTEST OVER! CONGRATS TO

Kayla Syslk #75!!

 

If you all follow my blog you know I have been trying to conceive our 3rd child now for almost 3 years now :( I have been taking fertility drugs, getting tests done and I have had 4 IUI‘s with nada. It is VERY discouraging to say the least and EXPENSIVE. I am beginning to accept I may never have another child again and it breaks my heart…and miss the ones so much I have lost :(

I am sooo very blessed for the two miracles I do have right now. Every day I love on them and kiss them, probably more than they would like ;)

At the beginning of my ttc journey, we did all sorts of testing, I was tested and of course my hubby was tested too. He was a bit embarrassed to do the Semen Analysis, what guy would not be, or at least be a little bit? I certainly wish that I had the SpermCheck Fertility Kit back then! Hubby would have felt more at ease, I am sure. Come to find out hubbys sperm are AWESOME little guys and he is all good, LOL. It is ME. Well, I think the fact that I have only one tube, is definitely NOT helping the situation :(

Now, I am not making any claims on this kit as I have not reviewed it, but I will tell you what their site says…

The SpermCheck Fertility Kit is an at-home test kit. Men can now test their sperm count in the comfort of their own home! SpermCheck Fertility is the only FDA approved, 98% accurate home test for men. Meaning it is as accurate as a lab test but more affordable and convenient and you can bypass the embarrassment too. In only 10 minutes the easy-to-read results will indicate a normal or below normal sperm count. Since experts do believe that a sperm count test should be the very first and essential step in fertility testing for couples, this kit really makes sense to use, before visiting your doctor’s office and spending money on this. This test is non-invasive and can help eliminate or identify a potential stumbling block to conception. And if you have been trying to conceive as long as I have, you want QUICK, easy and painless ways to help you to conceive  FASTER. I hate all the tests at the doctors I have to do, blah!

 

Why SpermCheck® Fertility?

  • SpermCheck® Fertility FDA approved 
  • SpermCheck® Fertility is as accurate as lab testing – 98% accurate
  • SpermCheck® Fertility is private and convenient – done in the privacy of your own home
  • SpermCheck® Fertility is affordable —just $39.99
  • SpermCheck® Fertility is fast and easy – provide easy to read results in 10 minutes

For more information about the SpermCheck Fertility Kit, please visit their site at http://www.spermcheck.com/ And for the latest news, information on store availability, news and special giveaway offers, join their Facebook Community!

Buy

The SpermCheck Fertility Kit is currently available online at Walgreens.com and CVS.com. And, it will be available April 2012 in Walgreen Stores Nationwide!

Win

One person is going to win the SpermCheck Fertility Kit!

How?

Easy! Just use Rafflecopter below. There are no mandatory entries, you can do one or all, good luck!

Disclosure:

 I was not sent anything for this posting/giveaway. I simply want to so desperately help those who are trying to conceive because I KNOW how painful it can be when you can’t :(
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Dec 12, 2011

My Family’s Holiday Traditions

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Do you and your family have a holiday tradition that you do every year? Me and my family do! And the kids absolutely love it!

Every year my family has a pre-Christmas get-to-gether. We get the family together (grandparents, cousins, etc..) and we will either go to dinner, go Christmas shopping, go see a movie or just hang out at each others homes. This is a great opportunity to get together before the actual holidays and talk about our year we had, our hopes and dreams for the following year and more.

We play board games, eat finger foods, watch holiday movies and just hang out. My kids love this, because they have so many cousins to play with, that they do not get to see a lot during the year! They get to be together, play and just have fun!

After we have the whole family get to gether, me and my kids will then have a night of baking Christmas cookies! I get out ingredients for chocolate chip cookies, sugar cookies and all the goodies to decorate the sugar cookies with. We have such fun baking and creating our cookies, together!

After we bake the cookies, me and the kids will read Christmas stories, their favorite is (of course!) “Twas the Night Before Christmas” and then we will either watch a Christmas movie or play a board game!

 

I try to make the holidays super fun for my family by doing something fun and magical each year. It is very important to me to do these things with my kids. I want them to grow up and remember all of the fond times we had as a family! Nothing is more important than family!

 What are your holiday traditions?

 

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Nov 25, 2011

Take Me Fishing (And A Giveaway!!)

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CONTEST IS OVER! CONGRATS TO

R Hicks #2440!!

I grew up in a large family, so finding things to do, that were inexpensive, was a MUST. Keeping 7 children entertained, I am sure, was not an easy task for my parents!

The things we did do most of the time, mostly during Spring and Summer, was camping and fishing. Oh my goodness how I LOVED to go fly fishing with my Daddy! Me and my two brothers (my youngest brother was not born yet), would go fishing EVERY Wednesday during the Summer. We called ourselves the “partners”, and man did we have fun!!

My mom would pack us a dinner, usually hot dogs that we could cook over the fire pit at the park, chips, pop and some sort of treat, usually smores! After we would eat, we would then go to the river, forge our way to rocks sticking out of the river, and start fishing!!

My Nephew lives in Burns, Oregon, and they have some AWESOME fishing down there!! Look at that sucker!!

I would always grab the same rock, unless of course it was covered by water, which sometimes happened because of the rain we get and then I would fish off the river’s edge with my Dad. It was so calming and usually we would go our separate ways for a good hour and just fish. Nothing but quietness and nature!! LOVED that.

Usually I was very lucky with catching my fish! I was pretty good at it, still am! Usually I was the first to pull up that wiggling fish! I would reel it in and grab it and take it off the hook. If it was too small, he would go back in the river, but if he was not too small, he was dinner the next night!

My Brother In Law!!

Yes, I caught my own fish and I cleaned them with pride. My mom would fry them up and we would enjoy eating them up! It was great for me and my brothers and Dad to do this each week. It was not only a cheap way for some great family time but got us kids outdoors and into nature. Kids now a days just don’t experience that like they should. That is why me and my hubby try to take our kids fishing as much as possible. Living in Washington State, there is A LOT of great fishing holes! We have found some really good ones and frequent them a lot during the Spring and Summer (some Fall) months.

Some people think that Fishing or boating takes a lot of money to do, but really it doesn’t. It would cost more to take the family out to dinner and movie! And, did you know that the dollars you spend on fishing licenses, boat fuel and fishing gear, actually go TOWARDS conservation efforts to help protect our nations waterways and natural resources? Well, it does and I think that is absolutely wonderful! So that gives you even more of  a reason to get outdoors, spend some time with nature and go fishing and boating with your family and friends the next chance you get!

I am so much in love with fishing that I took the Anglers Legacy Pledge. This pledge means that I will share my love of fishing with at least one person, every year, to pass on my knowledge, thrill of fishing and a commitment to a healthy environment. I took my pledge, will you??

Win

One lucky individual is going to win:

-$100 gift card to Bass Pro Shops (may be used online)
-Fishing inspired goodies
-Info, tips and tricks on best practices for boating, fishing and conservation with kids

How?

Easy! Just use Rafflecopter below! There is no mandatory entries, you can do one or all!

Disclosure:

I received a gift card and some goodies, these are my own personal experiences and story, thanks!

 


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Oct 7, 2011

Charting Your Fertility With OvaCue (Review and A Giveaway!)

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CONTEST OVER! CONGRATS TO

Shaunda Eppes #390

If you are a loyal reader of my blog, you know that I have been having a heck of a time getting pregnant with our third child. I have also had 3 losses, but now I can officially say FOUR. I say officially four, because when I went into see my fertility specialist a few weeks ago, he told me something that alarmed me. He said he was looking through my files and saw that I DID indeed have a tubal pregnancy WHEN I was pregnant with my daughter… Say What?! Ya, I NEVER knew that… till then. I had to pick my mouth up off of the ground. For when I DID have the tubal surgery it was, to my knowledge because the doctors THOUGHT it was a tubal, but when they took my tube out, they saw that it was only a cyst. That is what they told me… nice huh?

Anyways, back to what I was saying…

So, my cycles are a bit all over the place. I have been on pretty much every vitamin and supplement you can think of. I have tried all ovulation prediction tests, temped EVERY single morning to see when I would ovulate and put it all on a graph. Sure, I realized when I ovulated, but still was NOT get pregnant… hmmm.

So, I saw online the OvaCue Monitor and really really wanted to give it a shot. Afterall, I have tried everything else. I contacted FairhavenHealth.com and they agreed to letting me review one! Oh the joy I was feeling, seriously, this was so awesome…

I received it in the mail and since you have to start using it on cycle day 2 of  your cycle, I had to wait a few days. My OvaCue Monitor came with the Vaginal Sensor, which is a MUST I am finding out, to use with your OvaCue monitor for extra accurate results. The Vaginal Sensor does not come with the OvaCue Monitor but can be bought separately.

When cycle day 2 came along (finally!!! Ugh..) I programmed the monitor to how long my average cycle length was. Then I made sure the Oral sensor was plugged into the monitor and pressed the O for Oral Sensor, and placed it on my tongue. You wait for a second or two and then the reading is complete. You save it and you are done. It takes a few seconds each morning to do. You then can wash the oral sensor with mild soap and water and dry it for next use. You must use this oral sensor around the same time every morning for accurate results and you must do it upon waking up. That means no brushing your teeth or drinking anything!!! I keep this by my bed, so it is there each morning as a reminder when I get up. But then again, my brain is programmed for me to do this every  morning, because I am always thinking about it…. that is what happens when you have been ttc for over 2 years..

When you are done with your menstrual cycle, usually around cycle day 7, you can start using the vaginal sensor. You use this in the evening, around the same time, each day. You simply plug-in the vaginal sensor into the bottom of the monitor. Next you press the “V” for vaginal sensor and insert the sensor into your vag. Then you press next and it will take your vag reading. If you have intercourse, don’t use this for at least 7 hours, as the spermies might make for an inaccurate reading. Sometimes it says your reading is over “400″. If that is the case, you will need to redo the reading. This happens from time to time, but you just redo it and it only takes a few seconds too. Then, just press save!

Now at first your calendar days will be white, but as you take your oral and vaginal readings each day, they will start to change in color. From white to light blue, to medium blue then dark blue then a pink box (ovulation had occurred when you see the pink box, usually). From time to time you MIGHT also get a purple box in between your pink box. IF that happens, that means you could have tried to ovulate but did not, or maybe you have dropped two eggs. I have had a few questionable moments with my Ova Cue monitor, since getting it, and I have signed up over at their public forum, and have my questions answered right away! I LOVE that supportive forum. It has everything you need to know about OvaCue and plus other members share their experiences too. I have learned so much.

Yep, this is only HALF of ‘em (from last month…)

 

This is my second cycle using this monitor and I am loving it. It has really shown me more about my cycles, that I could have missed. It can tell you up to 7 days when your ovulation will occur, giving you ample time to get that baby dancing in!!! This monitor can help take stress off of trying to conceive and let you relax a little bit more. Plus, the accuracy level of the OvaCue Monitor is 98% while others are only 73-94%, so that is nice.

Great Features:

  • FDA-approved and recommended by fertility specialists
  • Simple to use and mess free with no additional purchases necessary
  • Track your cycle daily with the calendar-view display
  • Predict your ovulation up to 5-7 days in advance
  • Confirm ovulation with the vaginal sensor

So, if you are trying to conceive I would highly recommend the OvaCue Monitor. This month I also took my first round of Clomid and will be having my first IUI! Wish me luck!

Buy!

You can purchase the OvaCue Monitor online at http://www.fairhavenhealth.com/

Win!

One lucky trying to conceive individual is going to win their very own OvaCue Monitor Bundle (that includes the vaginal sensor too!!)

How?

Easy! Just use Rafflecopter below!! woot!

Disclosure:
I was sent product to review, these are my own personal experiences and thoughts with this monitor, thanks!


 

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Aug 8, 2011

Guest Post: 10 Things Not to Say to Someone Trying to Conceive

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This is a guest post written by Kelly from Texas Type A Mom

 

Like Kim, I suffered a miscarriage in December.  I was extremely upset about the abrupt end of my pregnancy but gained new determination in my quest to conceive again.   I have a type A personality and have this innate drive to plan things.  I don’t like to leave things up in the air but come up with a game plan.  This served me well in deciding when to start trying for my now 2.5 year old daughter and again the pregnancy I miscarried.  Miscarrying was a shock in itself but not getting pregnant again right away after seven months of trying came as almost an equal shock.  You can do everything you know how to do to get pregnant and your body can still betray you.

In my struggles to conceive again I’ve gotten lots of support and advice.  Most of it coming from a good place but some of it has been so misguided, insensitive, and off base.  Here’s my list of the top 10 things not to say to someone that’s trying to conceive.

  1. “Don’t worry, it’ll happen eventually.”
  2. “You’re still so young.”
  3. “Why be greedy?  Can’t you just be happy with the child(ren) you already have?”
  4. “Things will happen in their own time.”  Or the variation, “things will happen when you least expect it.”
  5. “Maybe it’s just not meant to be.”  Really?
  6. “Relax.  You’re just trying too hard.  Stop trying and it’ll happen.”
  7. “Have you thought about adopting?”
  8. “Everything happens for a reason.”
  9. “If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.”
  10. “Maybe you’re not doing it right, maybe you’re trying to hard or not trying hard enough.  Maybe you should look into acupuncture, specialists, herbs, tests, treatments, etc.”

A better comment if you don’t know what to say or unsure of how your comment might be perceived by the person who’s having a hard time getting pregnant, try saying something like, “I’m sorry you’re going through this.  I’m here for you if you need to talk.”  Conveying support and sympathy can mean the world to someone that’s fighting with their whole self to create a new life.

 

Kelly is an Austin blogger and stay-at-home mom to a preemie (now toddler).  She writes on her blog, Texas Type A Mom, about family, food, reviews, and trying to live a green life in Texas.

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Jul 18, 2011

This Just Sucks.. It Really Really Does…

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I am not allowing comments on this post entry only because I don’t want any of you to think I am always complaining or sulking in my trying to conceive journey. This is more of a post for me, to just scream and yell and make myself feel better…

Well, I am going on 26 months of trying to conceive. It has been a LONG, hard road and I seem to have not come anywhere near an end, in sight. I have been to the fertility doctor, got tons of blood work done. My body seems to be doing what it is supposed to be doing, but it is not coming together, to make a sweet little baby.

AGAIN, I thought this was MY month and AGAIN it is not. I am heartbroken, sad, depressed, lonely you name it, I am feeling it right about now.. I actually feel sick, sick that I can’t do it again.

What am I missing? What is my body not doing, that I am unaware of? For heavens sakes, I would HATE to think it could be my age, after all, I am 36 years old. But then, why would it be my age? Should I really not be trying to get pregnant at my age? Am I really an old person? I don’t know, I just  don’t.

You would NOT believe how much I spend each month on pregnancy tests, ha! You would all think I am mad, and maybe I am? I hope, pray, and do everything right for my body. I take care of it and do what I should be doing. Nothing every comes of it, ever.

Oh, well, ya it did, last November. And I was on cloud 2343743298543892348. But then God took this little sweet baby away, and left me empty and VERY bitter. I DID blame God, but don’t anymore, I don’t know who or what is to blame, all I know is that that sweet baby, like two other m/c’s I had, were stripped from my womb too early. NOT FAIR.

My sweet, miracle babies I have now, are so loved and I am SO. Thankful. for them. If I did not have them and their sweet kisses, hugs and support (along with hubbys) I would be a WICKED mess..

Anyways, maybe now that I have let it out, I MIGHT feel better tonight? Tomorrow? The next day? Who knows, but it was seriously worth a shot with the way I am feeling right now :(

Thanks for listening..

 

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May 18, 2011

A Blog Post From My 5 Year Old Son To You!

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So, as much as I blog, my son wanted to give it a shot. He is 5 years old and drew some pictures last night and said “Mommy, can I do a blog post tomorrow with these?”

I thought, how absolutely ADORABLE is that?! Of course you can!! So, this is his first blog post, and I am sure more to come, so enjoy!

(This was the picture he drew me for Mothers Day! He even spelled mom! So did my 3 year old little girl :) )

Yep, he wrote “bum” and “toot” LOL… That’s my boy!

Now for some words from my boy…

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Then he says “I am done! This is awesome, everyone is going to love this!”

LOL! I love my boy :)

 

 

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